Summer

I love the tuning of musical strings, the smell of grass on the wind. I love the swallows sailing through the sky, the tears that fall from pure delight.

Prayer

And what does the good book say, that we should fold our hands, bow and pray.

Lay our faith in the heavens above, though it is on this earth that we need love.

Java Blue

I fell in love with a man who was not mine. And got obsessed with I, I, I! His wretched Adonis looks, red brown hair, tangled in my dreams. The feel of it’s texture still present to the touch. I believe I own the skin from the right ear to his collar bone. Me the the fool, Seraph, flying around mad, flowers scattered on the floor of the room. Soft autumn light illuminating the dystopia of lovers divided, walled of from each others touch, soft spoken words drowned by the sound wall. Why this obsession with love. I have the java blues, drugs don’t do well with me. Maybe I should cut of my feminine frizz and play boy, but my Renoir figure won't allow. Miss the streets and dirty clothes, blood, the smell of sweat and alcohol. Cigarettes in crumbled packets, packed in the lining of boys jackets. Light please! Could I be more beat, beat, man I am tired, it comes with time.

Control, control I recall cassettes of Joy division, repairing them meticulously, cello tape and nimble fingers. Contradictions fill the moment, history repeating itself. We have been through this before, you know! Junkie mind, junkie thought, never was much for shooting up, just waking is an adrenaline kick. Baby can’t you feel it, or are you too numbed by normality. Guess we killed that thrill. Leather jackets hanging in the hall, what happened to Rock N Roll, did it grow old, and forget how to dance. I like twirling around to the soul sound, it’s out of date, but it’s mine alone. I wish I was Patti, NO! I want to be free, that’s all. Such a great wish, how, what, why , when did this happen, when did it stop? Java java smell fills the apartment, newspapers and contentment, maybe it’s the kill, that's it, death is on it’s way, I wonder how long it will take? The java tastes blue!